Tuesday, July 8, 2008
i know better than this.
i REALLY REALLY do.
so why did I not TRUST?
thats what I am always preaching.
and I am having to learn it myself.
but i guess thats how the Lord teaches.
instead i justified it as "not sure"
calling myself confused when im really not.
thats so dumb because I hate confusion more than anyone.
and twice i cause it.
i dont care about the first one, i can get over myself real quick.
but causing it for someone else. gosh thats when i feel bad.
Im frustrated with myself,
but then again, really im fine.
because I learned my lesson.
even if it was the hard way...
i have to
and trust what I hear.
even when it makes no sense. none at all.
That way I can avoid stupid crap
like causing unnecessary pain, frustration and confusion for other people.
ugh o well.
really i love to be taught.
cuz then things are so much easier the next time...
now ill trust more.
but now u see my mistake.
and i will, i will, i will
and really its not about proving YOU wrong,
but more about going against the grain of normality.
proving wrong the SYSTEM.
the system that says everyones the same.
I am not like the system
and i NEVER will be.
i think ive begun to show you that
in other things.
maybe I can really show you
that even in the things that are almost always universal across the board,
I am still
Posted by Fisher at 12:47 AM