Thursday, July 31, 2008


I love Him.

a whole lot.

He is so beautiful 
and His face is amazing. 
His voice is so sweet
and His embrace so precious.

Everywhere I look 
I see Him.

I love love love this intimacy. 
What is man that you are mindful of Him?

Thursday, July 24, 2008


simple reminders we can all use...

ask yourself in everything, is this glorifying the Lord?
always ask that.
not just at certain times. because theres no such thing as some separate Spiritual life. 
Moving WITH the Spirit should BE your life.
is He not worthy? 

always think about Him- think of the joy He brings and the peace, and the intimacy and the love.
because when you focus on all He has done for you and how great He is,  you begin to fall in love.

Don't try to figure out why you are going through what you are going through or why its His will for this or that to happen,
 just TRUST.  
Can't you trust the One who is absolutely perfect? I mean really. Would you rather it go your way in this moment and MISS the greatness He has for you in the future?

Everyday, seek to please Him. but it has to come from a heart of love. and not just striving. because if you are just doing things solely because you feel like you have to, thats not love at all... thats nothing more than trying to get fire insurance.

Stay in the word so that you can see the beauty of it. Depth is more important than distance. Its so much better to apply a verse or two today than to read a ton of chapters and do nothing with it.

Stay in prayer for your sake. and prayer doesn't have to look any certain way. Its simply communication with the father, that means you can be driving in your car and whisper some words of love. or when you find yourself in a rut, ask the Lord which way to go. 

Just be led.
As with any relationship, as you begin to fall in love with the Lord, you begin to learn about how He thinks and how He moves and what makes Him smile. 
and then it brings you joy to please the Lord,
and its HIS joy. 
He who created joy.  
If you truly want Him, He will open doors to where you get the greatest good and He gets the greatest glory...

and its pretty much amazing. 

So stop striving to always do more. just let Him love you and then fall in love. and see where that leads you.


you're so amazing.
the heavens are ever expanding 
and always telling of your glory. 

and I'm just this tiny thing on this little blue dot. 

yet You. 
so big
so vast 
so glorious

love me. 
and desire intimacy with me. 

is crazy. 

so that is why I praise you.
You are so worthy of my worship
and my focus
and my life 
and all I can give.

Monday, July 21, 2008


Its pretty much amazing to sit around with people you hardly know and share testimonies
Soooo refreshing 
and inspiring
and liberating
and unifying

It feels so.... family.


They Came Running 

is pretty stinking great.

Saturday, July 19, 2008


The Lord wins.

Anything against us is His enemy, not ours. 
remember that. k?

Friday, July 18, 2008


i am so done
im wearing myself out
i just want to live life
and stop trying to figure it all out.
i want to stop straining to listen and just hear
im sick of these battles in my mind 
I just want to enjoy life and not get stressed out over stupid things
i have got to learn what it means to rest
not physical rest necessarily, but how to rest my mind.

sometimes i wish i was normal, 
but thats only for a split second 
because in reality i would never want to be like everyone else. 
honestly, i get sick of always trying to be "in tune"
why cant i just live there instead of having to try and analyze or discern everything?

Today is a much better day
I am not forcing myself into situations and I'm just resting in the presence of the Lord.
Sometimes its good to just relax....
Im learning what it means to rest.
Everything is so much better when I take the much needed time to just stop. 
Sometimes when I am trying so hard to listen, I lose sight of what He is really saying and doing.
So today, I've chosen to rest. 
I'm not trying to understand it all and get some place new. 
Sure theres a lot going on and a lot coming up, but in order to get where I need to be when I need to be there, I am taking time to simply 
Today has been glorious. 

this whole rest thing,
you should try it sometime....

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.  Proverbs 3:5-6

Tuesday, July 15, 2008


In my Bible...
I read about a God who restores. 

In my Bible... 
The Spirit is God.

In my Bible...
I find a God who uses me despite of me- or anything I've done. 

In my Bible...
I see that God wants my heart, because once He gets that, He knows the rest follows. 

In my Bible...
my unchanging God is always bringing about change.

In my Bible...
there are exact instructions for what to do when I have something against somebody.

In my Bible...
God moves so powerfully in unity.

In my Bible...
I discover I am part of a body thats strength is based on the well-being of the rest of the body. 

In my Bible...
I read about fathers who impart instead of depart.

In my Bible...
I read about trust.

In my Bible...
God removes the branches that aren't bearing fruit.

In my Bible...
God chastens and prunes those he loves.

In my Bible...
there's this cross that brought my forgiveness.

In my Bible...
I read about a God who gives me the desires of my heart if I submit to Him.

In my Bible...
there's a God who wants to heal.

In my Bible...
submission to authority is necessary.

In my Bible...
I read about a God who won't tolerate the prideful and arrogant.

In my Bible...
it tells me the Lord hates lying.

In my Bible...
it tells me the Lord hates one who sows discord among brethren.

In my Bible...
grace is always there.

In my Bible...
those who hunger and thirst for righteousness are promised to be filled.

In my Bible... 
those who hear the word and keep it are blessed.

I know you hurt, but my God is a healer. The Lord really will bless this if you wait on Him. He wants to bless you, but you have to submit to Him and what He is doing. He wants unity. He is preparing us for greatness and He wants you to be involved in the beauty of it all, but only if you will trust His moving when it may not be so beautiful. The Lord not only wants to see you walk in greatness, but for His whole body to walk in greatness. He wants to use anyone who is willing and who is in love with Him. When the Lord looks at me, He sees my heart, not my tennis shoes. He hears the cry of my songs, not the beat they make. When the Lord looks at the next generation here, He sees hungry hearts, thirsty souls, excitement, and strength. But at the same time, such a need for wisdom. We need you right now. We need your wisdom, but we don't want it if we can't see you living for what we are willing to die for. Because then we realize all you say to us is you. and we are after those who are after the One we are in love with. Please impart and not depart. I need you. I am Westmore too. But Westmore isn't ours. Its His. Why not entrust it to the perfect, unfailing One? I need you to embrace what the Lord is doing in me. I want your wisdom if I can see you are led. and right now I can't see it. I'm ready for the Lord to move here and I would love for you to journey with me, but even if you don't come along I am going to move with Him. I will get to walk in all He has and get to see lives changed and walk in power and be led and live in His joy and His peace and on and on. I will be a part of walking in the fullness of all He has for Westmore. because I am Westmore and if I see the Lord, Westmore sees the Lord. There is so much purpose for this place. God is about to move aggressively here and remove anything and anyone in the way of what He is doing. So together, lets run with Him. And be for Him, not against Him. And be for one another, not against one another. Our unity and our love will accelerate this. Come on. I need you right now.  Your pastor needs you right now. Westmore needs you right now. This city needs you right now. The uttermost parts of the earth need you to agree with God right now.

I just wish you cared. 

Friday, July 11, 2008


Will you deal with your pain?
The bitterness inside
You shove it in to the point where you hardly know its there.
Now you can rest.
You fall into a slumber 
O SLOTHful one
Peaceful Awake
Your awake and rising to the top.
Or is it only a facade?
O but PRIDE shall come before the fall.
Snatching all you can hold
on the decent
Your depravity is evident.
Maybe they have something to offer.
Your LUSTful eyes 
consume you. 
Now you want it all. 
GREED overtakes.
As if you are the only one. 
ENVY grows without much notice.
Now your driven
You spiral into the WRATH 
thats always been there
That which you kept
Led to your death.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008


why is it that all the ones who say "i hate religion" are the most religious people out there?

i think its just an excuse to complain...
and criticize and sometimes even hate.

when really, coming against religion the way we are so often encouraged to these days, is to actually embrace what religion truly is...

and its laid out for us. plain and clear.

James 1:27 
Pure and undefiled religion before God and the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their trouble, and to keep oneself unspotted from the world.

Bringing down religion is actually to  Love God and Love People-
not living to point out the faults of everyone and everything.

as pastor would say... 
just a thought.



i know better than this. 

so why did I not TRUST?
thats what I am always preaching.
and I am having to learn it myself.
but i guess thats how the Lord teaches.

instead i justified it as "not sure" 
calling myself confused when im really not.
thats so dumb because I hate confusion more than anyone. 

and twice i cause it. 
i dont care about the first one, i can get over myself real quick.
but causing it for someone else. gosh thats when i feel bad.

Im frustrated with myself, 
but then again, really im fine. 
because I learned my lesson. 
even if it was the hard way... 

i have to 
and trust what I hear.
even when it makes no sense. none at all.
That way I can avoid stupid crap
like causing unnecessary pain, frustration and confusion for other people.
ugh o well.

Lesson learned. 

really i love to be taught. 
cuz then things are so much easier the next time...
now ill trust more.

and sorry. 
but now u see my mistake. 
and i will, i will, i will
prove you
and really its not about proving YOU wrong, 
but more about going against the grain of normality.
proving wrong the SYSTEM. 
the system that says everyones the same. 
I am not like the system
and i NEVER will be. 
i think ive begun to show you that
in other things. 
but now
maybe I can really show you 
that even in the things that are almost always universal across the board, 
I am still 


Sunday, July 6, 2008


What does it look like to really lose all control?
That I dont know
But just the thought of it is glorious to me.
I want to be there.
I want to be so lost in the continual presence of the Lord
that whatever I say, whatever I do, wherever I go--
its all for the glory of the Lord.
More than ever.

Maybe it looks like fruit.

Psalms 52:
6 The righteous will see and fear; they will laugh at him, saying, 7 "Here now is the man who did not make God his stronghold but trusted in his great wealth and grew strong by destroying others!" 8 But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever. 9 I will praise you forever for what you have done; in your name I will hope, for your name is good. I will praise you in the presence of your saints.

I am an olive tree...
I trust in you. 
You are the true vine.
I am in you. 
Lord prune me 
so I can bear more fruit.
Without you I am nothing.


God I dont know what you want. 
But I want whatever it is that you want. 

Thursday, July 3, 2008


so you told me to do this a long time ago. 
a really really long time ago.
I just havent. 
Whats in there that you want me to get?
I guess I should go find out huh?
Why is this so hard for me?
Probably because of whats in there.
and what the little minions want to keep me from.
Okay so even if I don't see what your doing with it,
what bad can come from it?
Lets see. absolutely none. 
I feel dumb that its so hard for me. 
but now I am determined. 
Watch out. 


 I love you. 
I love the way you do things. 
I say it all the time and will say it again,
Your orchestration is incredible.
The way that you position people in the right places at the right times always amazes me and always will, but at the same time, why would anyone expect less of a no less than perfect God?

What you are doing excites me. Oh the places you will take me. Oh the places you will take them. Wow. How do we deserve this?
The thing is, we don't. 
At all. 
But thats the beauty of it....
You take broken people and piece together something beautiful. 
You really do give us the desires of our hearts  if we are actually willing to let you shape those desires.

I love trusting you. 
I can't go wrong there. 
Because I trust you, I get to enjoy life YOUR way. 
and You are perfect
the joy, the peace, the excitement, the LIFE
is all there 

You promise you will direct my paths if I trust.
You promise unspeakable joy if I believe.
You promise strength if I wait on you.
You promise me abundant life. 
You promise me Your never ending love. 
This and so much more.

All your promises won't let go of me. 

Wednesday, July 2, 2008


This is my heart right now in a song.

Fee- "Beautiful the Blood"

I never knew death could be so sweet
I never knew surrender could feel so free
I never seen such meekness in majesty
That the blood of Jesus was bled for me

And now I sing freedom for all my days
It's only by the power of the cross I'm raised
The King of Glory rescued me

How beautiful the blood flow
How merciful the love shown
The King of glory poured out
Victorious are we now

Never knew through these nails would love unfold
And never knew these wounds would heal my soul
I've never seen such beauty and sorrow meet
The blood of Jesus was bled for me

And now I sing freedom for all my days
It's only by the power of the cross I'm raised
The King of Glory rescued me

[Repeat Chorus]

Now I'll sing freedom for all my days
It's only by the power of the cross I'm raised
The King of Glory rescued me

[Repeat Chorus]

How beautiful you are
How merciful you are
How glorious you are
Christ our Savior

How beautiful you are
How merciful you are
How glorious you are
Christ our Savior


Every day I get excited. 
The Lord is always moving 
and i get the joy of chasing after Him.
I love the peace of knowing I am in His will
and realizing I do not have to be perfect
and when i do mess up, I learn, then move on better than before.
The Lord amazes me every day with His presence.
Even in simple everyday activities
He is there.
I love love love to watch Him orchestrate my life 
and the lives of His other kids around me.
There are so many amazing people around me too.
I have so much fun.
He has promised me that He will not keep any good thing from me
because I trust Him. 
Its so true. 
Life is so great
but only because He is great. 
There is so much joy in the chase.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008


last wednesday. 
i got gloriously rocked. 

no big deal.

My God is incredible. for real.

Main Entry:
1rock \ˈräk\
Middle English rokken, from Old English roccian; akin to Old High German rucken to cause to move, 12th century
: to astonish or disturb greatly
: to become moved backward and forward under often violent impact

glo·ri·ous \ˈglȯr-ē-əs\
Middle English, from Anglo-French & Latin; Anglo-French glorios, from Latin gloriosus glorious, vainglorious, from gloria, 13th century


Someone please tell me.

I've only scratched the surface?
How the heck.